November 15, 2008

At Last...I'm Crying




It's raining outside.
Just a beginning...
It's raining and I'm crying...



I'm doing the past year's papers when my lovely course mate,
ex-roommate and sister YM me.
Just called her as Yuyue.

I missed her so much.
I just missed her so much.
She's my roommate when I'm in Third Year.
*to be accurate, last semester*



We missed each other.
I knew, sometimes I don't show to her that I missed her so much.
She do have other group which I called as "Twin 4".
I knew sometimes I acted childish,
and she's the one who will show her love towards me.
A pure love from a sister.



This semester, I knew that I'm acted strong in front others.
Yeah!
I know that I'm strong in such terms that I need to manage everything alone.
The real world will never be sympathize with me,
so, I need to be like that.


But...
I lose my soft emotions...
I can't cry whenever I want.
Sounds really pathetic, childish or whatsoever,
but, hell yeah, I lose my sister, Yuyue.
I lose someone's shoulder,
her shoulder when I'm crying.
She'll lend me her shoulder or her back,
let me cried there and hugged me.



I knew, that's one of the reason why I can't cry anymore.
But, while talking to her just now,
I felt that my tears just running down.
It cannot stop,
and I'm sobbing in front of Sean, in the dark, in my room.



Am I too weak?
Am I too lonely?
Am I pathetic?
I just knew that I missed her so much...
*and my Mira dearie as well*



P/S : I LOVE YOU!

To Hazami,
I read your email just now. Yeah...
Thanks for really understand my situations now.
God bless you my dear friend.
As I told you before,



I DON'T NEED A RING TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE...



At least, not now...
I just want my happy life with my studies...
With my family, friends and all of bloggers here...
I love my community...
I love myself.
I'm not suits on match-making-things.

To all my friends here...
Just remember one thing...


22 사랑해 Kisses From You:

Akira 思胜 said...

Are you okay? Dont cry...
Take care ya...

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

Akira 思胜:

I don't know if I'm okay...

Thanks 4 your concern dear...

MysLykeMeeh said...

aww---your not weak, you were just pouring your emotions when u miss someone too much... ur not pathetic---it means u cared and value her much, that's why!

Ya know good memories always last!

Hugss---

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

Mys Lyke Meeh :

Thanks for said like that dear...

Yeah...

I do hope so too...

T__T

rimieilya said...

I LOVE U TOO MY FRIEND..always missed our memories together..

dont cry ok..kamu kn kuat..

azie said...

time exam, emotion memang tak stabil .never will be. trust me, after that, mesti rasa ok balik dah.

smile, ok?

Yana Ismail said...

Dear,
janganlah nangis2..emm.sedih tau;(

emm..cheer up dear!!

btol tu..kami sayang kamu..maybe, you don't need a ring now..enjoyy dl;)

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

rimieilya:

Yeah!

I LOVE YOU TOO dear!!

sgt2 rindu kamu~

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

azie:

I hope so Azie...

I really hope so~

^0^

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

Princess Liyana:

hehehe~

I do I won't cry anymore...

I hope so dear...

Yeah...I don't need the ring now~

na'immah said...

be strong dear~~~and for the record,i totally agree with you...

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

na'immah:

Thanks dearie...

I do hope so as well

Anonymous said...

alamak.. touching...

Thenadi said...

sekurang2nya dah nangis rasa lega kan ~!!

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

Luth Textile:

Ye ke Luth?

ku memang nangis la...

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

[ Eclipse ] :

Yeah...

lega sikit~

T__T

Unknown said...

my dear girl,remember this ok : no matter how much sunshine in our life,rain do need to take place at times,so it's ok to cry once in awhile.even i cried today too bcoz too angry....

bukan orang pinkish said...

huh?bile pah nangis? x nmpk pon?

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

Nadine:

Is that so Aunty?

I do hope so...

I just hope so too~

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

sabariah.noor:

Tadi petang...

huk3~

time duduk kat meja...

A t i Q a h said...

I think she might be opening her door for you to come to her anytime tho. I know she's such a good friend right.

♛ LORD ZARA 札拉 ♛ said...

A t i Q a h:

Yeah she is...

She's really a nice girl...

Sob3~

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