November 15, 2008

At Last...I'm Crying




It's raining outside.
Just a beginning...
It's raining and I'm crying...



I'm doing the past year's papers when my lovely course mate,
ex-roommate and sister YM me.
Just called her as Yuyue.

I missed her so much.
I just missed her so much.
She's my roommate when I'm in Third Year.
*to be accurate, last semester*



We missed each other.
I knew, sometimes I don't show to her that I missed her so much.
She do have other group which I called as "Twin 4".
I knew sometimes I acted childish,
and she's the one who will show her love towards me.
A pure love from a sister.



This semester, I knew that I'm acted strong in front others.
Yeah!
I know that I'm strong in such terms that I need to manage everything alone.
The real world will never be sympathize with me,
so, I need to be like that.


But...
I lose my soft emotions...
I can't cry whenever I want.
Sounds really pathetic, childish or whatsoever,
but, hell yeah, I lose my sister, Yuyue.
I lose someone's shoulder,
her shoulder when I'm crying.
She'll lend me her shoulder or her back,
let me cried there and hugged me.



I knew, that's one of the reason why I can't cry anymore.
But, while talking to her just now,
I felt that my tears just running down.
It cannot stop,
and I'm sobbing in front of Sean, in the dark, in my room.



Am I too weak?
Am I too lonely?
Am I pathetic?
I just knew that I missed her so much...
*and my Mira dearie as well*



P/S : I LOVE YOU!

To Hazami,
I read your email just now. Yeah...
Thanks for really understand my situations now.
God bless you my dear friend.
As I told you before,



I DON'T NEED A RING TO MAKE MY LIFE COMPLETE...



At least, not now...
I just want my happy life with my studies...
With my family, friends and all of bloggers here...
I love my community...
I love myself.
I'm not suits on match-making-things.

To all my friends here...
Just remember one thing...


22 사랑해 Kisses From You:

Akira 思胜 said...

Are you okay? Dont cry...
Take care ya...

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

Akira 思胜:

I don't know if I'm okay...

Thanks 4 your concern dear...

Mys Lyke Meeh said...

aww---your not weak, you were just pouring your emotions when u miss someone too much... ur not pathetic---it means u cared and value her much, that's why!

Ya know good memories always last!

Hugss---

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

Mys Lyke Meeh :

Thanks for said like that dear...

Yeah...

I do hope so too...

T__T

rimieilya said...

I LOVE U TOO MY FRIEND..always missed our memories together..

dont cry ok..kamu kn kuat..

azie said...

time exam, emotion memang tak stabil .never will be. trust me, after that, mesti rasa ok balik dah.

smile, ok?

Princess Liyana said...

Dear,
janganlah nangis2..emm.sedih tau;(

emm..cheer up dear!!

btol tu..kami sayang kamu..maybe, you don't need a ring now..enjoyy dl;)

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

rimieilya:

Yeah!

I LOVE YOU TOO dear!!

sgt2 rindu kamu~

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

azie:

I hope so Azie...

I really hope so~

^0^

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

Princess Liyana:

hehehe~

I do I won't cry anymore...

I hope so dear...

Yeah...I don't need the ring now~

na'immah said...

be strong dear~~~and for the record,i totally agree with you...

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

na'immah:

Thanks dearie...

I do hope so as well

Luth Textile said...

alamak.. touching...

[ Eclipse ] said...

sekurang2nya dah nangis rasa lega kan ~!!

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

Luth Textile:

Ye ke Luth?

ku memang nangis la...

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

[ Eclipse ] :

Yeah...

lega sikit~

T__T

Nadine said...

my dear girl,remember this ok : no matter how much sunshine in our life,rain do need to take place at times,so it's ok to cry once in awhile.even i cried today too bcoz too angry....

sabariah.noor said...

huh?bile pah nangis? x nmpk pon?

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

Nadine:

Is that so Aunty?

I do hope so...

I just hope so too~

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

sabariah.noor:

Tadi petang...

huk3~

time duduk kat meja...

A t i Q a h said...

I think she might be opening her door for you to come to her anytime tho. I know she's such a good friend right.

ZARA 札拉 [사랑해~] said...

A t i Q a h:

Yeah she is...

She's really a nice girl...

Sob3~

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