There's a big different between those two.
But I know, how much I pretend to be strong,
I'm always can't handle with this kind of situations.
I can't face family problems properly.
I will just let my heart drown into sadness.
But, I never show it to them.
I know, they want me to be strong, for myself and the rest of the family.
As the eldest, Abah trained me to be strong.
To be independent to handle my life.
He will never lay his hand on any of my works.
He asked me to do everything on my own.
Same like Mak.
She will let me do anything, to be the best - as long as I don't do anything bad.
It's just like friends.
Only people who know me can feel what I feel.
I can see the big margin last night.
Who is a true friend and who is just for fun friends.
I totally can see that.
P/S: Hope Abah will get well soon. Thanks for all your prayers and supports.
And now, I can totally understand why they don't allow me to be far from them.
I can't controlled my emotions when it comes to family matters.
You've been kissed and hugs with Zara's Love!